Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Take it from Deirdre - I'm hurt again...

I don't know if this has something to do with this month being the love month, I'll be the first to find this out.

These days I'm overly maudlin, I turned out a weakly and effusively sentimental Magdalene. I hope you'll have the patience to read this entry. I can't blame a single iota if you wont.

Nasasaktan kasi ako pag may nagsasabi ng something negative kay Jennylyn. I know Jen needs improvement in certain skills, peru di ba sya pwedeng tanggapin as Jennylyn who is UNDONE but is, like a clay, molded to be good and er, done?

No one in the showbiz world is perfect. Ask Nora Aunor if she is perfect. And while you're at it, you can also ask Sharon, Vilma, Lorna...Don't they have colored pasts? Were they, in one aspect of their career, also a weakling in some areas?

It's perfectly fine to point out a constructive criticism. Just know your limitations. Just be sensitive enough to know that what is true to you may not be true to the others.

Kasi, at this point...nasasaktan talaga ako.

I guess this is how it is to love someone. Suddenly a knife gets to be too sharp, sometimes a stone turns out a marshmallow. It's a lotta mess. But truly - please hinay hinay lang. Nasasaktan lang talaga ako.

Salamat po.

Monday, February 13, 2006

Take it from Deirdre - Jen as she is...

Visited Jen's thread this morning and all I read was about:

1. Controversial kiss on SOP
2. Jen and Mark on White Lady
3. Jen's Wag Kukurap Performance
4. Jen's not-so-good makeup on SOP Gigsters
5. Jen's baby fats obvious on her SOP Gigster perfomance
6. Jen not looking good on her outfit
7. Jen making too many movements while singing...

blah...blah...blah...the list goes on.

I'm sorry to say but I've been keeping this for months now...I need to ventilate.

We are all admirers of Jen. As fans, we also have the right to voice out things that may not be 'tasteful' about Jen. It's all very fine for me to read posts that may comment about Jen. I guess the sentimental part of me just gets into my nerves so much these days that I'll be writing/posting my say.

I love Jen and I admire her for who she is. I love her performances and though I've seen her doing a couple of lapses I still love her because I know she's human and her performance could get better. Wherever Jen is right now, she paid the price and it was costly. I'm suppose to say some more comments about her that may be constructive but I did not because I want her to flow freely as she is and learned from her mistakes and grow from there. I wanted to tell Jen that she looks good with this image rather than that and she looks slimmer with that attire rather than those other outfits, but i stopped because I give her the freedom to let her own person uncover before the eyes of the public. I wanted to tell Jen that GMA seemed to be using her for the ratings and she can stop what she is doing now and follow what her heart entirely desires, but I stopped because I know that Jen knows the difference between choice and responsibility.

I'm suppose to post on those threads that Jen should not let GMA make her a puppet to do exactly what they tell...but I stopped. I realize that Jen is not a puppet, and just as I tell her to do what pleases me, I realize that I was making Jen a puppet of my own thinking as well.

Jen is her own person. A kaleidoscope all in one. I may hate her for little things that she does or hate those that made her look unfair, but I love her for all that she is. Those little things, though it irritates me at times; made up for the Jennylyn - the popular and still shining Jennylyn. She is not perfect but I accept her imperfections. It's hard to please the public; but judging from the posts that I read - the greater critics are the fans.

I let Jennylyn be. I no longer want her to to the artista that I wanted her to be, I want her to be the artista that she really is - unattached from all the expectations in my mind.